Flow Awareness

Can't describe how broken I feel at this point. I know better how to communicate by writing, so Odin bless you 'cause this ain't gonna be short. Nothing about me could ever be simple and uncomplicated., I mean, c'mon, I don't even want it less complex, as the depth of everything I am and I feel is everything but shallow. You once said you admired me for that. Babe, I am fire. I'm intense, I'm a diver afterall. And I like to go deep into people's souls. I want the whole fucking thing. I told you once I wouldn't be able to have you by the half, I wanted the whole you, your heart, I wanted to know your fears, what makes you happy, what is worthy of your attention, and so on. I recognise how important It was going to the other side of the world, so that I could experience pain in its most intimate face and I have confirmed how badass I really am to endure everything I've been through without actually falling apart, with your help and presence as well...

  Acho que essa caminhada pela vida tem me permitido muito mais que só existir. Ela me ensina o que é dor, raiva, tristeza e medo, mas também o mais puro e profundo amor; Ela me proporciona momentos de solidão pra que, então, eu saiba valorizar os que caminham comigo, e também a selecioná-los melhor; Ela me vira do avesso a cada vez que penso estar chegando em meu destino, e acho que é pra que eu me reinvente e explore o mundo através de outras perspectivas. E assim sigo meu movimento. Alguns dias vem em forma de êxtase, mas tem outros que só desejo que acabem logo. Dos dois jeitos sigo vencendo. Um dia de cada vez. Não é só mais um texto que escrevo pra fazer efeito nessa catarse. Aqui represento bem o momento em que vivo, de afastamento em ordem de reinvenção interior, de transformação! Vários ciclos chegaram ao fim ao mesmo tempo (loucura!), outros começaram com a mesma intensidade que carrego no coração. No conjunto vai essa cabecinha doida e apaixonada, pregada num corpo aben...

  What if You lose your path You lose your feet You lose yourself? What if In the middle of chaos You get so overwhelmed That you become The chaos itself? What if you can't find the way back? But back to where? What if You just keep fighting, Struggling, Praying so hard for an answer And getting so tired with the silence So hopeless So angry That you stop feeling? What if You lose connection You lose affection for things That you loved before? You are just tired and taciturn You're mute And you just keep going To see what happens on the next day It Could be a whole different day Or it could be just monday again. 8:40pm 26.07.20

  You are a bittersweet blues, of those that tear the guittar strings apart, of those that makes deep wounds into the heart. And you made me fall from the heaven that I was living on. For a long time I believed that I could only love one at a time, ‘cause it seemed impossible to split a heart in two. Loyalty was aways my guidance principle. Loyalty above all things, specially when it comes to love. After many delusions and a completely broken heart, I`ve finally found someone that took such a good care of me that I coudn`t even see someone else. Until I saw you. Yeah, motherfucker. You. And after that, it felt like falling from the heaven that I was already settled in. We've cheated on our destiny. We settled a meeting on the corners of our streets, that don't even cross at each other... You made me doubt of every single principle that I believed in my life. You made me feel comfortably and stupidly in love, in the middle of the fall, straight to the best hell I've ever ...